Can you die from crying?
Can you actually suffocate from having your heart in your throat at all times of the day and night?
Can the rash that you give yourself around your eyes consume your body?
Can you lose so many nutrients from sobbing that you actually wilt away to nothing?
Can the wild swings from an artificial euphoria to the bleakest saddness twist you into a knot you can never untwist from?
When they say ‘heart broken’, can it actually break and kill you?
If all of those things, painful and torturous turn out not to be deadly, I will be honestly amazed!
I am carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders and I won’t last as an upright human being for much longer.
There are words swirling around in my head and as hard as I try, I can’t get them to slow down or line up in any sort of congruous thought pattern
So. Very. Tired.
So while I’m not calling an official time out to the blog (because the second I do, I’ll have four thousand bloggable experiences and then I will argue with myself as to whether to post them), if you don’t see me around here much in the next month or so, you now know why.
Comments for this post are being moderated to keep details out that may sneak in. I’m willing to describe myself and my feelings, but not willing to have my actual life on display.